The next step

The next step

“Failure is not the deterrent for the next try. Rather, it is information that empowers the next step.”
― Craig D. Lounsbrough

 

The one step that is holding us back tends to be the one we didn’t take. Life is about walking a bit, running a bit, struggling a bit and leaping a bit but you can never make it to the next level if you don’t fail a bit.

Failure is inevitable!

It may alter how you get there but it should be the driving force behind when you get there!

Never miss a moment because you decided it didn’t work the first time!

After you fail you must get back up again because it on a whole different level from falling.

 

Image result for someone falling down

Keep in the mind that making is a mistake is like you fell down but failure is when you decide to stay down!

 

Angie L.

 

Black Journey

“The beautiful journey of today can only begin when we learn to let go of yesterday.”
― Steve Maraboli

I recently got a new vehicle and it is a black journey. I didn’t realize the significance of the vehicle until yesterday. My life has been a black journey up until this point because I would not let go of the past!  I was fearful out what was ahead so I clung to the known because it was safer.

 

Image result for journey

I know the road ahead of me is so promising but fear strangles the life out of you and all your energy is spent trying to figure out how to keep going.

When I walked into the dealership I knew what I wanted and had everything picked out in my mind but something about this black journey just pulled me in. I didn’t want to test drive it because I knew it was just what I needed to get me to my next destination in life. The one thing that was holding me back was now getting ready to launch me into the journey of a life time. It gave me my freedom back!!!

 

Angela cursive

August!!!

August!!!

“Maturity, one discovers, has everything to do with the acceptance of ‘not knowing.”
― Mark Z. DanielewskiHouse of Leaves

 

In August your expectation is that things will start to change. The end of summer is slowly approaching. Your relaxed routine is about to return to a hectic place for most people and the season as you know it is moving forward.

My August was all of this plus a multitude of storms all coming at one. I didn’t know if I needed an umbrella, windbreaker, an underground shelter or battle clothes. The uncertainty of not knowing what is going to happen next when you are dealing with an analytic person can be overwhelming.

 

Week One

The fight begin….

I over analyze everything but at times I just take the punches and roll with it!!! THIS AUGUST……Mayweather boxed me up for almost 30 whole days not ten rounds like you are used to but for a whole month!! I ducked and dodged but still felt like I had been in the fight of my life.  Uncertainty of what is next had set in!

 

Week Two

The storm came….
Image result for person caught in a stormEverything I had held onto was in a whirlwind and I had to act like everything was still standing in the same place. Vision was so clouded from everything flying up and around me I could not see what was ahead of me.

Week three

Uncertainty and disbelief set in

 

Uncertainty is a silent killer to people who are used to having everything seemingly in order! The tears, the panic attacks, the unanswered prayers, the anger, the feeling of defeat and the despise for others who seems to be breezing through my August storm.

Week 4

The tears were still flowing but I finally started to see a rainbow after the storm

As my August ends and September begins the lesson I took away from this all is winds come to blow you into the area that you are supposed to be in. Sometimes we focus so much on what is wrong that we don’t get a chance to see all the things that are right!

Angie

The Load You Carry

The Load You Carry

“I took it off.
I did not want to carry it with me anymore.”
― AvaYou Are Safe Here.

 

She always looked like she was in so much pain and agony. They judged her by the weight she was carrying on the outside but those who really knew her knew it came from the crown she wore on her head. Often the crown we carry on the outside can never compare to the crown that we carry on the inside……….

CROWN:

of disbelief

of grief

of doubt

of misunderstandings

of worry

of fear

of failure

of hurt

of pain

of confusion

of a broken heart

THEN:

She realized that the way she was carrying the crown was too much. It was weighing her down…….Image result for heavy crown on a head

 

So she took it off!

Angela L.

image by: https://goo.gl/images/AFuQQd

 

 

Sitting too long!

Sitting too long!

“Are you green and growing or ripe and rotting?”
― Ray Kroc

green apples

Stagnation will cause you to rot when you were once ripe and flourishing

Life can sometimes be just like the images you see when you don’t take the time to take what’s  inside and bring it to the outside to give it the opportunity to thrive. Stop sitting and waiting for someone to come pick you up out of a basket, and create your own basket. Nothing comes to a person who sits but a stench and a rotten core.

Replace your existence with persistence and watch how your stench becomes a scent that is a pleasing aroma to you and to those around you!

Say it with me: I commit to dismiss every urge to just exist!

As I wrote this years ago I decided to reevaluate some of the words. Did I see a change? Am I just still sitting and rotting or using my fruit to allow more seeds to grow?

GET UP!

Angela L.

NO!

NO!

“Sometimes “No” is the kindest word.”
Vironika Tugaleva

All she ever heard:

Was no you can’t go!

No you can’t stay!

No you would not like this at all!

No you won’t fit in!

No it’s not your type of people!

No I don’t want you following me!

No I don’t want to be seen with you!

No can you just go home!

As she hung her head in defeat and retreated to the place in her mind where NO was a place of acceptance the phone rang. It was in that moment she realized that NO was the kindest word she had ever heard because in a blink of an eye everything had just changed.

Image result for explosive

Written by Angie

Desperation

Desperation

“That if desperate times call for desperate measures, then I’m free to act as desperately as I wish.”
Suzanne Collins, Catching Fire

 The situation is like this: freedom of choice!

Buy a car or steal a car

Get an education or drop out

Argue or walk away

Study or fail

Follow or lead

Respect or disrespect

Honor or disobey

Do or doubt

Love or hate

Kill or heal

Give or take

 Image result for making a decision

I can go on and on with the comparisons of choices but desperation causes people to make rash decisions.  You never know what another person is faced with until you are put in their position. It’s easy for us to say what we would not do but you just don’t know.

The seemingly mountains that are before you will cause you to question your decision making patterns in life. Do I have a choice? Desperate measures leads to desperate actions:

The mother who can’t feed her child and the kid is looking her in the face. The dad who could not pay his rent because he was laid off from work. The child who has test sitting in front of them knowing if they don’t pass the test it would keep them from passing the course. The young man who is trying to fit in with the crowd because he always felt alone. The young lady who is being pressure into having sex but she don’t want to lose the only person she feels that has ever loved her. The kid that is sexually confused but afraid to vocalize it so they experiment with their thoughts.

 

Desperation draws you into territory you have never traveled before…

 

Desperation will cause you to make a permanent decision based on a temporary situation….

Desperation will cause you to forget your integrity….

Desperation will cause you to pull a trigger…

Desperation will cause you to turn a trick, cheat on a test, join a gang, steal, kill, lie…….

WE are free to act as desperately as we wish however in the end the CONSEQUENCES belongs to us!!!!

cropped-angela-cursive1.jpg

Do or Doubt?

Do or Doubt?

“The moment you doubt whether you can fly, you cease for ever to be able to do it.”
J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan

 

My ability to do comes from my ability to imagine.  If we spend less time thinking we can’t just imagine how much we could if we just act on our imagination.  My ability to create comes in those moments when I think I can’t. In those moments of thinking you can’t you have two choices; either do it or don’t! If you don’t you live in regrets and when you do you live in the rewards of something you’ve accomplished.

Doubt is such a strong source of power in most of our lives because we look at things from this perspective either I win or I lose. I look at it from this perspective either I win or I learn and I keep it moving.

DO or DOUBT it’s your choice but do yourself a favor and stop doubting the ones that “DO!”

 

Image result for Do it or doubt it

Angie

Open your eyes…

“People need not fear the unknown if they are capable of achieving what they need and want.”
― Paulo Coelho

Our mindset or intellect functions in one way and that is whatever way you are thinking. Often when someone else comes along with an idea your mind is closed because you are conditioned to think one way. “The purpose of education is to replace an empty mind with an open one.” Malcolm Forbes

Well this is what this Election season was all about! It’s time to open our eyes and our minds! God is able to work through the unlearned things of this world. You have a candidate that is a business man who has never walked in the office of a politician as a President. Who clearly says the most off the wall things and have no clue on what to do however he was chosen. God uses whomever He wants to carry out His plan. God uses the foolish things of the world to conform the wise. In order to be used you have must be weak and low and for the next four years you will see a manifestation like never before. The outcome was not what I was praying for however God is still God!

PSA: The president is not in control of your life you are the commander in chief in your own home!

God will get the victory out of this because now our jaded mindsets will be shifted.  The world looks to worldly wisdom and a jaded mindset which leads them away from God. This mockery of an election is an opportunity to level the playing ground. I did not believe in either of the candidates and choosing the lesser of the two evils was the only option. However I believe that God can use anybody with a tainted past as long as their heart is willing. Having child-like faith is what help steer this election.

When people believe so strongly in what they know they can achieve they will stop at nothing to get it. Just like a child who wants a new bike they ask, they work, they ask again and do whatever they need to do to make sure they get what they want. I believe this man was foolish enough to believe anything could happen and it did. One thing he had over his component was that he had a teachable heart. His words were QUITE foolish and his sentiments were very rude and demeaning but he pierced the heart of people who believed just like he did. He gave people hope just like some people found in our current POTUS!

We have a divided country because people are straddling the fence with unwarranted opinions and hatred of the unknown. I will not live my life in fear of the unknown because of who is in the office because I know that God reigns. Just wait and see how God turns things in the favor of the believer. “but rather God has chosen that which is foolishness of the world to confound the wise, and God has chosen that which is the weakness of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty!” (1 Cor 1:27)  God works best through the unlearned things of the world because they have a willing heart to listen to instruction. The turn out was not what most people desired but God is not mocked so continue to watch as well as pray!

 

Ms. Angie

 

Today’s Journey

Today’s Journey

“It’s the journey, not the destination, but that doesn’t make sense until you get there.”
J.R. Rim

I was looking for a deal and a quick return on investment but that is not what I got. As I got into the car full of people we were all heading to the same place. As we arrived we all got out to look around to get what we came for. One of the people with me got put out of the establishment as soon as we got there because of their attitude and tongue but I just shrugged it off and kept going as they walked away. I was determined to find what I came for. I still had a few people with me but as the journey progressed on the circle got smaller and smaller.

As I was travelling along the path I ran into so many things that looked good until I got up close to them. That is when I realized that things are not what they always seem to be. As I begin to try to find my way back to where I started I saw so much stuff I should have never seen. I put myself into places that I had no business being in that I had to duck, dodge and crawl at times to make it back to a stable place. I got scratched, cut and my clothes were tattered because I had to maneuver through places that I didn’t belong.

dark-and-dangerous

Those who I had started with were no longer with me so I had to try to find my way back to the door by myself. It was dark and I was in an unfamiliar place and I sought out people for advice.  They kept leading me in the wrong direction because they didn’t know where I needed to be or better yet where I was trying to go. In the process my eyes continue to see things I had no business seeing. I went in looking for something but it is not what I thought it was. I wanted OUT!

doors

When I finally saw a door it said that only certain people could exit through it so I had to keep moving. I saw many doors but none were accessible for me. When I got to the last path it was as if I could hear the outside but I still couldn’t see it and discouragement starting creeping in. Wearily I kept pushing trying to find my way out but I didn’t give up. I made it to another room that had a door but this room was also filled with lewd acts but I knew it wasn’t my destination so I was able to maneuver around to keep pushing. Once I left that room there was a door standing wide open for me and when I step through it was raining outside. Out of all that I have been taught I lifted my hands and received the rain as it washed off the dirt from the ordeal I had just come through….. I had finally reached my destination but I had to endure the journey first!!!

rain-2

Moral:

  1. You can’t do whatever else do
  2. You can’t go where everyone else goes
  3. If you stay the course your harvest will be waiting
  4. Follow the cloud and not the crowd

cropped-angela-cursive1.jpg