August!!!

August!!!

“Maturity, one discovers, has everything to do with the acceptance of ‘not knowing.”
― Mark Z. DanielewskiHouse of Leaves

 

In August your expectation is that things will start to change. The end of summer is slowly approaching. Your relaxed routine is about to return to a hectic place for most people and the season as you know it is moving forward.

My August was all of this plus a multitude of storms all coming at one. I didn’t know if I needed an umbrella, windbreaker, an underground shelter or battle clothes. The uncertainty of not knowing what is going to happen next when you are dealing with an analytic person can be overwhelming.

 

Week One

The fight begin….

I over analyze everything but at times I just take the punches and roll with it!!! THIS AUGUST……Mayweather boxed me up for almost 30 whole days not ten rounds like you are used to but for a whole month!! I ducked and dodged but still felt like I had been in the fight of my life.  Uncertainty of what is next had set in!

 

Week Two

The storm came….
Image result for person caught in a stormEverything I had held onto was in a whirlwind and I had to act like everything was still standing in the same place. Vision was so clouded from everything flying up and around me I could not see what was ahead of me.

Week three

Uncertainty and disbelief set in

 

Uncertainty is a silent killer to people who are used to having everything seemingly in order! The tears, the panic attacks, the unanswered prayers, the anger, the feeling of defeat and the despise for others who seems to be breezing through my August storm.

Week 4

The tears were still flowing but I finally started to see a rainbow after the storm

As my August ends and September begins the lesson I took away from this all is winds come to blow you into the area that you are supposed to be in. Sometimes we focus so much on what is wrong that we don’t get a chance to see all the things that are right!

Angie

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Can you hear????

Can you hear????

Look at the things that transpired over the weekend in VA. The world is not separated by color but separated by HATE!!! Don’t be surprised that this happening because our silence allowed the pot to be stirred again.

Endless Potentials

“Silence is so freaking loud”
― Sarah Dessen

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One day you wake up in 2016 and it seems as if the world has reverted. As if I was living in a bubble the world seem to be showing itself for what it really is; which is divided. The silence has been deafening for so many years but no one was speaking. Look around, listen closely and don’t speak and you will hear the sound of breaking hearts. Hearts that have to hear your baby is not coming home because someone didn’t value their lives. Hearts that have to hear your child was the wrong color in the wrong place even though they have freedom to be wherever they please. Hearts that have to hear your family is not welcome because they just do not fit in. Hearts that have to hear your child was wearing the wrong thing! Hearts that…

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The Load You Carry

The Load You Carry

“I took it off.
I did not want to carry it with me anymore.”
― AvaYou Are Safe Here.

 

She always looked like she was so much pain and agony. They judged her by the weight she was carrying on the outside but those who really knew her knew it came from the crown she wore on her head. Often the crown we carry on the outside can never compare to the crown that we carry on the inside……….

CROWN:

of disbelief

of grief

of doubt

of misunderstandings

of worry

of fear

of failure

of hurt

of pain

of confusion

of a broken heart

THEN:

She realized that the way she was carrying the crown was too much. It was weighing her down…….Image result for heavy crown on a head

 

So she took it off!

Angela L.

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Sitting too long!

Sitting too long!

“Are you green and growing or ripe and rotting?”
― Ray Kroc

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Stagnation will cause you to rot when you were once ripe and flourishing

Life can sometimes be just like the images you see when you don’t take the time to take what’s  inside and bring it to the outside to give it the opportunity to thrive. Stop sitting and waiting for someone to come pick you up out of a basket, and create your own basket. Nothing comes to a person who sits but a stench and a rotten core.

Replace your existence with persistence and watch how your stench becomes a scent that is a pleasing aroma to those around you!

Say it with me: I commit to dismiss every urge to just exist!

 

GET UP!

Angela L.

NO!

NO!

“Sometimes “No” is the kindest word.”
Vironika Tugaleva

All she ever heard:

Was no you can’t go!

No you can’t stay!

No you would not like this at all!

No you won’t fit in!

No it’s not your type of people!

No I don’t want you following me!

No I don’t want to be seen with you!

No can you just go home!

As she hung her head in defeat and retreated to the place in her mind where NO was a place of acceptance the phone rang. It was in that moment she realized that NO was the kindest word she had ever heard because in a blink of an eye everything had just changed.

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Written by Angie

Desperation

Desperation

“That if desperate times call for desperate measures, then I’m free to act as desperately as I wish.”
Suzanne Collins, Catching Fire

 The situation is like this: freedom of choice!

Buy a car or steal a car

Get an education or drop out

Argue or walk away

Study or fail

Follow or lead

Respect or disrespect

Honor or disobey

Do or doubt

Love or hate

Kill or heal

Give or take

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I can go on and on with the comparisons of choices but desperation causes people to make rash decisions.  You never know what another person is faced with until you are put in their position. It’s easy for us to say what we would not do but you just don’t know.

The seemingly mountains that are before you will cause you to question your decision making patterns in life. Do I have a choice? Desperate measures leads to desperate actions:

The mother who can’t feed her child and the kid is looking her in the face. The dad who could not pay his rent because he was laid off from work. The child who has test sitting in front of them knowing if they don’t pass the test it would keep them from passing the course. The young man who is trying to fit in with the crowd because he always felt alone. The young lady who is being pressure into having sex but she don’t want to lose the only person she feels that has ever loved her. The kid that is sexually confused but afraid to vocalize it so they experiment with their thoughts.

 

Desperation draws you into territory you have never traveled before…

 

Desperation will cause you to make a permanent decision based on a temporary situation….

Desperation will cause you to forgot your integrity….

Desperation will cause you to pull a trigger…

Desperation will cause you to turn a trick, cheat on a test, join a gang, steal, kill, lie…….

WE are free to act as desperately as we wish however in the end the CONSEQUENCES belongs to us!!!!

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