“Maturity, one discovers, has everything to do with the acceptance of ‘not knowing.”
― Mark Z. Danielewski, House of Leaves
In August your expectation is that things will start to change. The end of summer is slowly approaching. Your relaxed routine is about to return to a hectic place for most people and the season as you know it is moving forward.
My August was all of this plus a multitude of storms all coming at one. I didn’t know if I needed an umbrella, windbreaker, an underground shelter or battle clothes. The uncertainty of not knowing what is going to happen next when you are dealing with an analytic person can be overwhelming.
The fight begin….
I over analyze everything but at times I just take the punches and roll with it!!! THIS AUGUST……Mayweather boxed me up for almost 30 whole days not ten rounds like you are used to but for a whole month!! I ducked and dodged but still felt like I had been in the fight of my life. Uncertainty of what is next had set in!
The storm came….
Everything I had held onto was in a whirlwind and I had to act like everything was still standing in the same place. Vision was so clouded from everything flying up and around me I could not see what was ahead of me.
Uncertainty and disbelief set in
Uncertainty is a silent killer to people who are used to having everything seemingly in order! The tears, the panic attacks, the unanswered prayers, the anger, the feeling of defeat and the despise for others who seems to be breezing through my August storm.
The tears were still flowing but I finally started to see a rainbow after the storm
As my August ends and September begins the lesson I took away from this all is winds come to blow you into the area that you are supposed to be in. Sometimes we focus so much on what is wrong that we don’t get a chance to see all the things that are right!
“I took it off.
I did not want to carry it with me anymore.”
― Ava, You Are Safe Here.
She always looked like she was so much pain and agony. They judged her by the weight she was carrying on the outside but those who really knew her knew it came from the crown she wore on her head. Often the crown we carry on the outside can never compare to the crown that we carry on the inside……….
of a broken heart
She realized that the way she was carrying the crown was too much. It was weighing her down…….
So she took it off!
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“Are you green and growing or ripe and rotting?”
― Ray Kroc
Stagnation will cause you to rot when you were once ripe and flourishing
Life can sometimes be just like the images you see when you don’t take the time to take what’s inside and bring it to the outside to give it the opportunity to thrive. Stop sitting and waiting for someone to come pick you up out of a basket, and create your own basket. Nothing comes to a person who sits but a stench and a rotten core.
Replace your existence with persistence and watch how your stench becomes a scent that is a pleasing aroma to those around you!
Say it with me: I commit to dismiss every urge to just exist!
“Sometimes “No” is the kindest word.”
― Vironika Tugaleva
All she ever heard:
Was no you can’t go!
No you can’t stay!
No you would not like this at all!
No you won’t fit in!
No it’s not your type of people!
No I don’t want you following me!
No I don’t want to be seen with you!
No can you just go home!
As she hung her head in defeat and retreated to the place in her mind where NO was a place of acceptance the phone rang. It was in that moment she realized that NO was the kindest word she had ever heard because in a blink of an eye everything had just changed.
Written by Angie
“That if desperate times call for desperate measures, then I’m free to act as desperately as I wish.”
― Suzanne Collins, Catching Fire
The situation is like this: freedom of choice!
Buy a car or steal a car
Get an education or drop out
Argue or walk away
Study or fail
Follow or lead
Respect or disrespect
Honor or disobey
Do or doubt
Love or hate
Kill or heal
Give or take
I can go on and on with the comparisons of choices but desperation causes people to make rash decisions. You never know what another person is faced with until you are put in their position. It’s easy for us to say what we would not do but you just don’t know.
The seemingly mountains that are before you will cause you to question your decision making patterns in life. Do I have a choice? Desperate measures leads to desperate actions:
The mother who can’t feed her child and the kid is looking her in the face. The dad who could not pay his rent because he was laid off from work. The child who has test sitting in front of them knowing if they don’t pass the test it would keep them from passing the course. The young man who is trying to fit in with the crowd because he always felt alone. The young lady who is being pressure into having sex but she don’t want to lose the only person she feels that has ever loved her. The kid that is sexually confused but afraid to vocalize it so they experiment with their thoughts.
Desperation draws you into territory you have never traveled before…
Desperation will cause you to make a permanent decision based on a temporary situation….
Desperation will cause you to forgot your integrity….
Desperation will cause you to pull a trigger…
Desperation will cause you to turn a trick, cheat on a test, join a gang, steal, kill, lie…….
WE are free to act as desperately as we wish however in the end the CONSEQUENCES belongs to us!!!!